Ultrasound pics

We went into our first ultrasound appointment on Dec. 15. The Doctor says to us, everything looks fine except I'm concerned about this line going through your amniotic sac. She said "this usually means that the sac is breaking away from your uterine wall and you may miscarry." Of course, not what I wanted to hear. I haven't been bleeding but had been cramping a lot so was not happy. She asked me if I work out and said for the next 2 weeks to not work out and come back in 2 weeks and they'll check it out again. She said not to worry about it but how could younot. Any pain I felt I was terrified that I was going to lose the baby. This pregnancy in the first trimester has been completely different then Jocelynn's pregnancy. Been very sick and nothing sounds good. I lost 2 pounds when I went back in 2 weeks, probably because I was so stressed. When I went back she gave me the above shot. I remember there being more space on the other side of the line but that's probably because the ultrasound device can expand the image.

We went back and she has no further concerns. I was happy and very relieved. I'm actually finally starting to get my energy back!

Goodbye 2009

2009 was an amazing year. This year was my favorite age that Jocelynn was in. We had the best time everyday, going places and creating memories. I didn't want it to end. 2009 was of course not perfect. James being gone on the weekends for school and busy many nights during the week was not always easy but we pulled through. The economy hasn't been easy either, not for James job but because we are one of the many home owners that bought in 2005. We all have trials, there's always more we want as individuals and for our families. It's easy to compare yourself with others but I can truly say, after experiencing the pain my friend has felt from losing his wife, none of it matters. I have my family right now at this moment and I couldn't be more grateful for that. Jocelynn won't remember all the toys she has or the space she has to play . . . but she will remember the fun times we have together as a family. A couple goals I completed in 2009.

• Work out a couple times a week and participate in Sprint Triathlon
• Print out 2008 blog book
• Organize garage and put up shelves
• Cook and have family dinner 5 times a week
• Family Home evening Monday nights
• Took Jocelynn to library

I'm excited for 2010 and what's in store for us. Here are some goals for 2010

• Start taking classes again to pursue Speech pathology
• Participate in some kind of race after the baby is born
• Print out 2009 blog book
• Finish Jocelynn's scrapbook
• Don't gain more then 30 pounds while pregnant
• Work more with Jocelynn on fun preschool activities
• Learn to sew

Family goals

• Sunday walks and no Tv on Sundays
• Read scriptures more

Merry Christmas 2009

This year Christmas really went by too fast. I cooked the first week of the month, the second week I was busy preparing to cater a Christmas party, and the third week I was getting ready to leave to Wyoming. In the middle of everything, sick from being pregnant. I tried to enjoy it but there was a lot I didn't do that I would have liked. Next year, I won't be as busy. I loved her Christmas pajamas. They looked so cute on her.

I didn't think Jocelynn would understand Santa the way she did. Everytime we would see him at the store or if he was decorated on someone's house she would yell out "Santa!" (although she didn't want to be close to him). The day before Christmas, we had been talking about Santa and I think she thought someone was at the door and thought it was Santa and ran with a scared look on her face to her Dad. We couldn't stop laughing. We then had to explain to her that Santa comes in the night while you sleep, I think she was relieved.

When she went to bed that night we put a cookie and milk out for Santa and a carrot for his reindeer. She liked that part. In the morning, I think she was afraid that Santa was by the tree but when she peeked around the corner, she was thrilled. She immediately got on the horse. After presents, we explained the "true" meaning of Christmas and sang "Happy Birthday" to Jesus.

We went to my mom and dads for breakfast and then came over later for dinner. Here are some of the cousins. Jocelynn loves her boy cousins. They all play so well together.

An attempt to get a family shot.

Tyler and Jocelynn are 9 months apart and very close. Jocelynn looks up to Tyler a lot and thinks he's so funny. She follows him around everywhere. They could not stop hugging each other in these pictures. Too cute!

The picture below was 2 years ago. Can't believe how big they both are. (Tyler's arms around Jocelynn so cute!)

Wyoming

James, Jocelynn and I drove up to Wyoming with my parents. I was sick the way up so that wasn't too fun but Jocelynn was such a good girl so I was grateful. It was in the 20s in Wyoming. So cold. Jocelynn had such a great time playing with her cousins. Many days I wouldn't hear from her for hours. It was nice.

Here she is in her Christmas dress before church.

Jaeger and Jocelynn are about 6 months apart. They play so well together and many times I would hear them in the room laughing together. They love each other.

Jocelynn also loves Jordyn. She played with her a lot and I had to take this picture when I saw them hanging out together.

We went sledding on Monday and that was so much fun. Jocelynn loved the snow but I think she liked throwing it in the air the best.

My mom got the kids some tubes and it was so fun.

Jocelynn making a snow angel. We had a great time in Wyoming and can't wait to return.

Masters in Business Administration at CBU

James started the Masters program at Cal Baptist University May of 2008. He graduated Dec 18. We are so proud of him. Hasn't been easy but he did it. It's amazing how much Jocelynn has grown in a year and a half. He is so happy he completed it when she was so young and so am I. I remember when James started at RCC 8 years ago. We also took classes together. It's been a long road but I'm grateful we have the same long term goals. It may take us awhile to get there but eventually we will and it'll be amazing to look back together at where we came from!

Jocelynn was such a good girl during the ceremony. My grandma also came.

My mom and dad.

My brother in law and James good friend, Keven.

We celebrated at Woodranch BBQ for dinner. It was a wonderful day. I got James a nice Bulova watch for graduation. He loved it.

Pregnant

I'm 9 weeks pregnant. Our due date is July 29th. I found out I was pregnant on a Thursday and decided to wait to tell James on Saturday when we were going to the temple as a family. We've been wanting to take Jocelynn and what better way to announce our family is expanding.

Friday we went to James work and went out to lunch. On the way back Jocelynn said "Daddy, mommy has a baby in her tummy." It caught James off guard and because my friend Melinda had a baby the day before, he said "you mean Melinda?" She said "No mommy!" I thought, thank you Jocelynn! :) We played it off.

So the next day it was a beautiful day. We put a blanket out and Jocelynn asked Dad to read her a story. He didn't read the title and just opened the book. As he continued to read he caught on. He did say he knew something was up after Jocelynn made the announcement the previous day. The book that Jocelynn is holding was the book James opened when I found out I was pregnant with Jocelynn. So I thought it would be perfect for him to open the next book. It was a great day. Grandma and Grandpa Kirk were at the temple putting up Christmas lights so we shared the news with them also. We are very excited. Jocelynn will be such a great sister!

Random Acts of Kindness - Thanks Liz!

My friend Liz posts random acts of kindness on her blog that she notices people do. I had one to share so thought I would start doing this also. Last week I went and got Jocelynn's haircut. I had no idea it was cash only. Her hair was cut, and Jocelynn was getting hungry. I had no cash on me and the lady was so kind. She said don't worry about it. Pay me when you can. I thought that was so kind of her. She could have made it a lot more difficult for me. I went right to the grocery store and came right back. I was so grateful for her random act of kindness!